Last week I received a letter from a friend; Joe wrote:
"This morning I woke after having another dream where I wasn't hardly worthy of having the best much less second, third, forth or even hardly deserving of having whatever is left at the bottom. I felt like a loser who was trying to become something I wasn't deserving of.
These feelings always seem to get stronger when I haven't been praying and reading my bible, or even exercising on a regular basis. But even still the feeling of failure has secretly hunted me over the years. Its resided somewhere in the back of my head my entire life. A whole list reasons why I'm not good enough comes over me when greatness is almost in sight."
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He finished the letter with:
"at times I hardly feel worthy of having the best of anything great and therefore I often do things to sabotage my own successes.
Julie, what makes this hard to write is that I've never shared this with anyone in fear that they would think less of me. I really didn't even know who to address these thoughts to other than myself, but like I said I've read your messages from time to time and I have found them to be inspiring and biblical based.
Today I'm asking you is there a message you might have for me?
It's hard to hit the send button, but I will anyway because I realize to become strong I know I must first admit my weaknesses.
Thank you,
Joe"
Friends, I can relate with Joe. How about you? Ever feel unworthy? Ever sabotage yourself?
Today, I wanted to take time to address the concerns Joe brought up and offer helpful hints (posted previously on November 23, 2010). I hope it provides encouragement for all of us:
What To Do When Life Gets Sideways!
Ever get to the place where you want to scream..."Ok, the gloves are coming off! I'm gonna get really good and honest!" Then the sinking feelings and pervading questions arise..."Can they handle it? Are they close enough of friends?"
Well, I'm testing the waters today on our friendship...are you ready? Here goes...I'm putting myself out on the line! As you know, I always write transparently, but today, we're gonna take it to a whole new level! Are you ready???
The truth is my life, much like yours, gets sideways every now and then. At times I question whether or not I'm living in the center of God's will. I wonder if He hears my prayers. My faith waivers, weakens, and wonders when I don't witness more of His miracles. Sometimes confusion grows so thick I feel as though I could literally reach out and touch it! Am I alone? I suspect I'm not! We all experience these moments. Though our battles differ in appearance...we all wrestle the same enemy, whose mission is to STEAL, to KILL, and to DESTROY.
We all encounter moments where life seems to turn upside down, veers off the designated road way, and slips and slides uncontrollably, turning sideways towards destruction. We all experience moments where the very essence of who we are is tested...the core of our faith is questioned...
So, the question arises...what's a believer to do to regain control over a life gone sideways?
In moments like these there is only one thing to do...
SURRENDER!!!
Don't surrender to the enemy, don't surrender to circumstances, don't surrender to the futility of our own thinking...but surrender to the ONE WHO ALONE HOLDS ALL THINGS TOGETHER!
When confusion presses in clouding our judgment and voices whisper accusations, failure, tormenting our beliefs...we surpass the place of needing to simply muscle down or pull ourselves up by the boot straps to fight some more...NO THESE DARK BATTLES REQUIRE GREATER MEASURES THAN DETERMINATION...they demand complete and total abandonment to GOD and GOD alone.
I know, I know, you're thinking, haven't we talked about surrender before? Haven't I already surrendered? Can I just say, I'm with you dear friend; but, surrender doesn't occur in one final event, it's a continual process. To truly war against the massive oppressive weights pressing us to the ground, we must learn to cry out to THE ONLY ONE WHO has the capability of lifting them.
So, if you find yourself in a battle, let me just encourage you...YOU ARE NOT ALONE. And, here is what God is teaching me!
1. Take time to stop. It's ok to take time to rest. Clear your schedule. Jesus often took time to get away from the masses. He spent countless hours before God in prayer. Truly if the Son of God needed to pray and get away...surely we need to also!
2. Replenish your soul. Sometimes confusion comes from ministering and "doing" so much that we've forgotten to sit at Jesus feet and hear Him speak. I think of Jesus response to Martha in Luke 10:41-42, when He said, "Martha, Martha," the Lord answered, "you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her." (NIV)
3. Call out for help. The Lord is close to the broken-hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. (Psalm 34:18) When we call upon Him, he hears us, and will deliver us! Psalm 91:14-16 says, "Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him. With long life will I satisfy him and show him my salvation." (NIV)
4. Be transparent. This may be difficult for those of us who feel we always need to appear as though we have NO struggles, that we are NEVER weak, that our FAITH is NEVER shaken! YET, WE NEED ONE ANOTHER. Ecclesiastes 4:12 says, "Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken." (NIV) Find people of strong faith and link arms with them. Share your burdens with one another. Choose wisely but live transparently!
5. Speak forth God's Word. We must remember the enemy is the FATHER of LIES. He whispers half truths, mingles it, muddies it, and attempts to destroy us in our own thinking. Reading God's Word and speaking it out loud, helps us to hold fast to what is true, and disarms the enemy's tactics. (Read Ephesians 6:10-18)
6. Sing forth Praises. David often would sing to the Lord and encouraged himself, questioning, "Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God." ((Psalm 42:5-6, NIV)
7. Repent of all sins. James 5:16 encourages us to, "confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective." (NIV)
8. Remember God's Nature. The enemy constantly attacks believers with questions like, "Did God say?" (Eve in the Garden of Eden)...or... Are You really who God says you are...and will God really do what He said He would...("IF you are the Son of God cast yourself..." (Urging Jesus to test GOD and underlying accusing and questioning His Identity and God's faithfulness...) By remembering God's nature we can put to death the enemies silent accusations and any distorted faulty thinking.
9. Evaluate your involvement. Not EVERY BATTLE is spiritual in Nature. Sometime we get sideways because we've over committed. It's ok to NOT do everything. There are many NOBLE purposes in life, but if we venture off involving our self in every activity, we will wear ourselves out! (Ephesians 2:10 points out that we each have a distinct call, "For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." NIV) Dis-engage from everything God has NOT called you too!
10. Purpose again to press on and serve the Lord! In Joshua 24:15, Joshua challenged the Israelites, "choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your forefathers served beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you are living. But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD ." (NIV) Sometimes we simply need to choose again WHO we will serve, question why we do what we do? Did God tell us to? Did we step off into something He never commissioned? Once we hear clearly, we need to simply commit to His Plans and His Mission for our lives.
PRAYER: Father, guard our hearts and fill us with Your Spirit. Give us the strength to do ALL You call us to do...and wisdom to resist picking up any thing You have NOT called us to! In Jesus name. Amen.